Did I just lost something?

I think I did. But of course, this is not regarding any boy girl relationships. It's definitely friendship.

Our friendship starts 9 Years ago, that was Year 2003. WOW! We've spent 9 Years together as "best" friends but it seems like I don't know you well enough to carry on the friendship. And it seems like you don't understand me too. So what can we do to get this resolve? It seems like there's no way to resolve this kind of matter.

Yes, we do seem close in photos, but in reality... It's hard to read you. And it's hard to read me. I admit that even at times I can't bring myself to forgive you even for the little things. But I hide those with a smile of course. I didn't want our friendship to end. I've been holding in my true emotions towards you in order for our long friendship to last forever. It's not easy being friend with you. Seriously, it's hard to read you. Whenever I ask if things are going well, and your answer will always be "Aiyah..." and nothing else.

From my point of view, it seems like you expect people to understand what's happening just by the word "aiyah...". Maybe other people gets it (wonder who's that marvelous to get what you're saying). Anyways, I really hope I won't hold any grudges on you for nothing. But seriously, I can't bring myself to not hold grudges on you. Too arrogant of you. If you realized, I'm always speechless nowadays when I'm with you. I'm disappointed, because you're getting worst. Even when I share my problems with you, all you said was "aiyah..." Oh wells, you are all about "aiyahs". Fine.